Okay, no drama here, its just my birthday no big deal.
I wanted to write a lot of things this past 2 weeks but the persistent headache had been telling me to stay away from self driven insomnia and long date with the networks. So, most of my thoughts were shared with same old pillow and the bed who had been become stranger to me. But this day beacause I have a responsibilty to throw away the gratitudes for all the sweet greetings I bang the internet instead of the dishes and press the keys again over the social networks just like the old fun days before this headache killed the sociable side of me. There it me, skyping, tweeting, chatting and emptying my thoughts.
The plan that had been residing on my mind for this day is to spend this day over the Philippine shore but sadly it didn’t happen and I put the blame on the headache. Damn it. Actually, I can’t find a perfect fit on my staggered off and I was not allowed to exchange for duties. I can’t find anyone to drag to share my birthday emotions, everyone is busy and when I finally decided to go on my own, my monthly visit came. I was left with no other choice but to stay home spend the whole day with family which are priceless, smell the melted cheese on top of macaroni and let little Mackenzie entertain me and plan the upcoming May mini reunion–book their flight (be their travel agent), brainstorm on my Aunt’s one month itinerary and so on.
Tomorrow will be my day, coffee with the “Before ever after.” To where, I don’t know yet, let that day be open ended and spontaneous and the day after that will be work day again, back to same old routine–work mode.
My 26th year on earth (deep breath.)
It is now sinking in, life is becoming more shorter now if the average life span is up to 60 years so I guess I have to be less cautious meaning lessening the worries or else I will cram when death becomes more closer. My stationary birthday wish list would just be aside from the famous good health, is a more define roles on earth. To finally know or realized what I really wanted to become, what I really want to do with my life other than sip coffee the whole day, to know where I really belong. To know who I really want, someone worth spending nine days Novena prayer. Yes, am I really saying this. Wahhhh! Anyway, I firmly believe that there will always be a suede shoes waiting until….. 2040? I just wish to discover life more, to go deeper into the details, to see a lot more of the the world. To understand why life had been spinning non-stop. I think I need to not rush things up and missed something and messed things up, to just control the traffic, remove the hindrance.
Its official, I’m 26 (inhaling it and holding my breath.)
Life was strange and cruel at times but there will always be a reserved room for us for chances and there will always be friends to come for moral support. That even if being alone can make us more vulnerable it is the best way to discover self fully. Strangers are friends we haven’t meet, smile back when someone strangely stare at you. Make tequila when the world hands you lemon and party until the night fades out. Margarita party. Sometimes a good cry can make us feel better so when you feel like crying, cry it out. When life becomes bitter, choke it up. Inhale and exhale when you’re ready.
I’m ready, I think so!
I just think so, ready or not I have to shift timeline, after all this is a blessing, a privileged blessing, exclusive to only some. Ready, yes I think I’m ready to say that I’m 26 year old, young professional, single and ready to mingle? Mingle with the world I’ve been mingling with for quite a quarter sometime.
To the memories of People Power Revolutions and my first day on Earth that are subsequently celebrating. Lets keep the memories alive, the epic fight for democracy and my first ever cry, my way of saying cheers, I was born and will be reborn again for something else.